Saturday, June 30, 2007

I have a dream..!!

Whenever I listen to this one, I get a peculiar feeling that I have written this.




I have a dream, a song to sing


To help me cope with anything


If you see the wonder of a fairy tale

You can take the future even if you fail

I believe in angels, something good in everything I see

I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy

To help me through reality

And my destination makes it worth the while

Pushing through the darkness still another mile

I believe in angels, something good in everything I see

I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing

To help me cope with anything

If you see the wonder of a fairy tale

You can take the future even if you fail

I believe in angels, something good in everything I see

I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream



ABBA - Thank you for the music!!

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I am left perplexed by my own behaviour. I like to believe I am an uncomplicated person but today’s episode left me thinking about why exactly I reacted so much over such a small thing. No, I didn’t fight, yell or shout. Just firmly declined. But this was big enough a decision.

The only answer that was seemingly possible till an hour back and is the certain one now is – my subconscious does not like my self-respect being remotely compromised. But on this occasion my behavior looked astonishing to me myself, but I think I have found atleast an explanation now.

Tadaa!

Some songs get glued to your mouth. this time it is - because i get high.

cuz i got high, cuz i got high, becuz i get a high..!!

:)

mmmmm am luvin it!!!!!! :)

know why.. cuz a get high cuz a get high cuz a get high..!!

:)

Monday, June 25, 2007

Some strange sweet surprises!!

Life is full of them, strange sweet surprises. Don’t look for reasons, don’t look for logic, because there isn’t any! And if it’s a sweet surprise, truly you are not complaining either. But this leaves you thrilled, and leaves a smile on your face, and you know that you are perhaps being watched by the positive energy that built the world. This sounds simple but believe me this is so exciting.

Just five days back I was sitting at office, was having rather a busy day at work when I knew that it was just a little music that could keep me going without feeling tired. This is what I am use to doing back in Bangalore as well, and it is proven on me that music helps me work. But there was just one problem, there aren’t too many songs on my laptop right now, and I wanted to listen to some really nice English songs that I have admired over years. There are songs that you associate, or they get associated, with a particular time of your life and when those songs play you are taken back to memories of the past. On this day, I was longing to listen to “Falling in love..” by UB40, searching for some memories of past. I started searching the net for this one, but to no avail. I could not find sites which offered good English music online. I didn’t even want to download music, just wanted to listen but what a pity, there was nothing worthwhile available. Then I got reminded of the radio stations that windows media player links you to. Alright, now that I could not find what I was looking for, I could settle for some otherwise nice music too. I selected soft rock, a few stations got listed. I clicked on 181.fm Love Songs (Hearts). It was playing “Right there..” by Bryan Adams. Wow! So I could finally find some nice station. I finally got back to my work. Next song was “Unforgettable” by Nat King Cole and Natalie Cole. Aha! I was having a nice time. And guess what the third song was! It was – “Falling in love..”!! This was incredible! I was looking for this song like a few minutes back, and could not really get good results. And here was this song playing in a random selection of songs at a randomly selected radio station. This was Elvis Presley version. I heard Elvis’ version for the first time and instantaneously fell in love with it. This was indeed a surprise, a very sweet one. I was excited as I was thrilled. Not so big to phone home about, but I wanted to tell this to someone. Better sense prevailed and I did not call anyone as usually under such circumstances, the other person doesn’t really understand the thrill part, and tries to be nice to you with some “O really, that was great!” but you know by the crests and troughs in their voice that they missed it. And then the effect catches on and gets diluted on you as well. I didn’t want it to get diluted. This station played many adorable songs. Just set me in a great mood, and this helped me stretch this day, which was required. Human mind is never satisfied, is it! Before leaving this day, when I knew I would be shutting off the machine in may be ten minutes time, I felt this queer desire from within. Could Elvis sing this song just once more today for me! And the outcome was unbelievable, believe me it happened, and it was so unbelievable. I was still hooked to the same radio station, and they played it again.

Wise men say, only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you.
Shall I stay, would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you!

… and it played on. It gave me an intoxicating high.. for some inexplicable reason. I was loving it!
If you happen to be reading this, you may question this high, and this thrill.. but I can’t explain it, it was just so wonderful. The day got over, and had a hangover for the rest of the week. I found myself humming this song all the time. At work, at walk down the sea side, on the bridge on my way back from the town centre, in the kitchen, it was “falling in love” all the way!

Today is Sunday, which culminates the “falling in love” week. I look back at the week and just think well that was some coincidence, it was wonderful. I pick up my laptop to scribble few thoughts. I also switch on the TV to see if there is something interesting. There is some movie playing, I start watching it. It is Matthew Perry (not sure if I got the spelling correct, he is Chandler from Friends) and Salma Hayek in the lead roles. During the commercial break I learn the movie’s name to be – Fools rush in. Well! I have not heard of this movie before (I am not too much into movies) but this gives me a feeling that my “falling in love” week is presumably not yet over. I am not hundred percent sure, well I am not even 1 percent sure, but the title “Fools rush in” compelled me to think so. I laugh at myself and realize that may be I am just thinking too much, get completely engrossed in the movie. Turns out to be a sweet movie. And if you don’t know about the movie already, you will not believe what I am going to tell you now. The title track comes up when the movie gets over. And it is – “Can’t help falling in love with you”. I am amazed beyond words. I don’t know what’s happening, and truly do not mind it. This song seems to be chasing me.. and I love it!

..take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Who is he?


"He is just an overpaid bloke who just kicks round things around."

In UK, where football is a religion no less than cricket in India, where players are icons, they are idolized, and battles are fought on football clubs. People refuse dinner invitations on the days when their clubs are playing, and some wear flashy, colored, numbered jerseys to workplace and everywhere else to show their dedication, extend support and contribute to morale. On this land when someone says Beckham is an overpaid bloke who just kicks round things around, it certainly was something comically strange.
The man in question is a security guard at my workplace. On the final day of dissertation, when I reached office at 3.30 in the morning, he was the only one other than me in the office. And after it got over, he came to my desk and asked me what business pulled me out at that hour of the night when it was so cold outside. I was excited with the thought of completing my 4 years of MS and I told him about the dissertation. Since then, whenever I leave for the day, and he is at duty, I have to spend five minutes at the gate talking to him. Not that he is boring, pretty talkative and doesn’t have anyone who would listen to him. Wife died 33 years back and that was all the family he had. So in these five minutes conversation everyday, he tells me as much as he can about his country, and the government and the history and the places to visit.
On this particular occasion, I was leaving office a little late, it was 9 in the evening, and I had just received a call from Akash (a friend who lives in Leeds) about him being able to manage tickets for the IIFA Bollywood vs. Yorkshire cricket match. I was thrilled, and while leaving, when I met him at the door, I told him that I was going for the cricket match the next day. Cricket! He exclaimed! God save you, you could not find anything better to watch in the whole of Britain. I asked why you don’t like cricket! Well it was anyway apparent that it was a stupid question. But the answer was good – I would rather paint this wall and watch it dry in place of having to watch that dreadful sport. Hmm.. ya I know everyone here likes football, I said. Oh that’s no better! He pointed at his desk and there was the current day’s newspaper sprawled over the desk, and said look at that news paper, David Beckham has been featured once again on the front page. For what!
Is this that’s irking you so much, I asked?
Now do you want to look at the second page also? He flipped the page and showed me a news report about a retired Gurkha soldier of the British Army, commemorated with Victoria Cross not once but twice. And at 84, when he needs medical assistance, NHS denies his rights of admission in any hospital because he is not a Brit. He wasn’t agitated while talking, was rather smiling while speaking and was beautifully sarcastic. “Somehow this country has got all its priorities wrong”. And David Beckham left country is a front page news, came back is a front page news, will go back again is a front page news, and people love it. He is so highly paid!! For what! He is just an overpaid bloke who just kicks round things around!
This one made me laugh. He laughed too but continued. He said the temperature dips to below zero in winters in Scarborough. But this being a sea coast, a life guard needs to be at the sea side at 5 in the morning on those freezing mornings. He gets paid at 5 pounds an hour. And this bloke gets more money in a week than that lifeguard can not see in his lifetime. You tell me who is a bigger hero.
I obviously said – lifeguard, who obviously is a bigger hero.
Somehow this country has got the priorities wrong...
I said good night and proceeded.
..suddenly Beckham doesn’t look appealing any more!